Cutie ,Im going off le........... U take gd care of yaslef ok...Will be back by Fri... I miss u lots cutie..

working tml ... sian... ok but im so happy rite now.. I finished my 1st mission alr.. Hopefully i can pass to u tml nite after my work... Hopefully u are at home too... =)

A little bad news for u n me.. Im going off on Monday instead at 5pm... to Korea.. will only be back on Sat.. =( My heart sank when i heard this news today... and i was stoned for a while.. 1st thing came to my mind was ya birthday ..... My mind was saying "har! den i can't be in sg on ya 1st Aug? how? its ya birthday.. i can't celebrate with u".... It keeps on appearing in my mind.. I can't be there when its ya 21st brithday... Im so utterly sad... is it god's punishment?

Think i will go to your hse and post u the present on Sunday instead... =(

Cutie... there's so many so many things i wanna say to u... Be it sad things happy things etc etc... know wat.. rem i said i wanna realise my "tt kind of life".... i actually tot tt in my mind.. Going with u to Seramban during Chinese new yr... i also imagine u taking me to see fire fly at nite.. den we will be at the beach there enjoying, slacking, playing etc.. Exploring and u taking me ard seramban.. keke.. (ok i know im imagining things again -_-") anywae, tt's wat i tot of when i said want to take a break off sg and gg somewhere quiet... It will be gd if i can go...

Up till now u din invite me to your party... I guess u dun intend to ask me along too... Anyway Tuesday is my off day..So ya im not having other things... if u not inviting me.. I also won't go out too... Just go out to post your present tt's all... I really have no idea whether u got a party or not.. Or just celebrating with small groups of frenz.. Im not sure too...

Hope i can pass the present to u personally.... and have some time alone with u too... (haiz.. Im imagining again)

ps: i think u r quite busy these few days... Dun over work ok... Take care of ya health.. Good nite.. Muacks... Sweet dreams.....

Cutie.. wanna tell u tt im super happy today... keke.. =) not gonna tell u y now.. till the day comes... den i say.. So now =X .... hehe... I will be having a very tight schedule for this week... Busy with work cos i needa help out in the promotion at Suntec (just beside the main entrance).... Super tired sia.. Week ends also have to work... -_-" Haiz....

Besides tt i need to rush a few productions.. keke.. So mean while... I might not get to update here... But i willl try my best.. -_-" u din know this blog exist.. hehe.. typing as if i talking to u like tt...haha... me dreaming again... Self talking and self answering...-_-" omg..

All i can tell u is im half way of my productions... Kekeke.. wish me luck ... I miss u so much cutie.. Hope u feel the same too.. =)

Gd nite cutie.. oh ya and nice vid.. quite entertaining.. keke.. Looking foward for ya next vid coming summer..Keke.. and of cos ya Fyp.. I really hope u do well for it.. with Flying grades... not only the grades are impt.. as well as satisfaction(the most impt)... do crazy stuff tt u want cos u can't be doing tt when u come out to work..keke... Most impt also is u LIKE ya vid or other thing u doing for FYp... im not v sure wat u will be doing on .. Of cos i would like to know too.. but i bet u wont tell me too.. as what tt time u told me "y shld i tell u everything".... "y do u need to know so much".....

Cutie... ! CUtie! cuTie! i hope u be there for me .......... i will be there for u too..! I will still wait patiently for u ....

Good nite cutie... Jia you for tml yea...

theres gd and bad news today..

Good news:

Im having my next off day on the 1st August... wondering will u invite me to ya bday party? i wish i can spend the whole day with u alone.. but i know possibility is low... But still i would wanna say tt "happy 21st birthday" to u personally.. Im really looking forward to the day.. =)

Bad news:
Im leaving off again on the 2nd August rite after ya day.. But still if there's possibility, i would really want to spend the last min and seconds with u .. Like how u spend the last min and seconds with me on my day (although its not u want it & u've been gd to shi xian my wish.. and is i want it...Im v happy le..)...

Hope i can wish u tt sentence... I MISS U SO MUCH...

Today u left in a hurry.. I wish u could stay more longer.. but at least i got to see u... Hope ya family like the Lao Po Bing... should be nice cos its rated the nicest... as in e stall.. Im recharge abit le after seeing u.. =)

Good nite Cutie.. Jia you for everything u do..

I really really really miss u alotz.. Have not been seeing u online or even msging.. How i wish u could pop out in front of me.. Giving me surprises.. I need ya care and concern badly.. Will i be able to tahan my misses to u till out next meet?

hi Cutie... how have u been?? hmm.. i guess u wouldn't be missing me ba... Hmm.. but i miss u alot when im there... I hurt my thumb while bathing... the glass door just pang on my little thumb.. how painful is tt...


Been all alone travel to China and travelling back to Singapore.. how i hope tt u will come pick me up.. my parents wasn't there to pick me up.. Hmm.. but nvm .. im all alone anyway..

Now im back to Sg... will u be happy?? or to u there's no any feelings..? I really miss the day when we chatting on msn for tt long... tt's another nice memories for me.. Haven got ya news yet ever since im back.. hopefully u will msg me back... I mISS u alot Cutie.. hope u r doing fine & healthy...

Good nite cutie.. Jia you for tml yea...

Cutie... tml wil be a 8am flight.. Hope u be there too.. Will u ? Hmm ok dreaming again...

Yesterday was really a dream for me.. I mean its so miracle tt Im able to see u for like 6 hrs till 6am this morning... (although it was thru msn)... The fun we had.... THe urge u had (keep on dcing but still wan to on webcam)...I don't know whether isit u misses me too or sth else? u know wat im talking about... Whatever it is i do feels the same way as u do too... U make me misses u even more... Make me wanna dream of u even more.. I have the urge to see u rite now & yesterday too...


Hope u have this urge to see me too... I miss our tight hugs n passionate kisses & our ultimate likings... U r so sweet & cute yesterday.. Just cant take my eyes off the screen... Good nite Cutie... Take care of yaself for these few days... MuackS...

Sometimes im glad tt u didn't know tt this blog really exist.. cos tt way i can say out bout my true feelings.. if u see this blog i will sure get scoldings from u like "dun be stupid", "abit bo liaoz", "for wat" etc etc.. So im just glad tt at least there's rooms for me to say out my feelings..if not i dunno where i can "pour" my feelings to..


Time has really pass so fast.. So fast tt i've alr taken out my braces.. Seeing my new sets of teeth.. FEel so great inside me.. tt once more i can bring back my smile alr.. no more "no teeth" smiling... I really hope to let u see my teeth.. U r the first i would like to show to.. besides my family.. Hopefully i can meet up with u soon.. REm ya liquor is still with me..


Will u come send me off on Sun? (ok im dreming again).. u never will... i just hope miracle will happen to me... in my dreams u will tell me tt "Im sending u off on sunday ok" ... How wonderful it will be.. (but its just a dream, i have to come back to reality...)

Cutie.. today ive no mood for updating here.. I heard of sth when i was working.. its sth related to work stuff.. Haiz.. im just so super sian.. ok nvm.. i go slp le.. only slpin can let me forget everything..

Btw i dreamt of u yesterday.. & Sze Jia.. haha .. dunno y got her inside.. anyways its quite a sad dream.. nvm.. Today im so "loW" mood to talk about anything..

Gd nite to u ok Cutie.. take care of yaself 2... Im going off in 2 days soon.. So take care of yaself yea..

everyday been a much fruitful day to me.. hope yours too.. take care of ya health ok even if ya schedules r tight.. Im aiming for my goals too..

" Means I love u... dai biao zhe wo li bu kai ni.... in my heart we'll never be apart.."

my heart has always been with u.. our parting makes me realize tt my heart nv left with someone elses.. instead it stays on with u.. I did try to be with another but it didn't turn out good.. my heart wasn't with him all along & i know i can't deceive myself too.. So i choose to stop it.. (the kind of feelings can never b replaceble by anybody. only the right and only person can give u tt kind of feelings.. this is wat i came to realize too.. )

I once never appreciate wat i had in front of me.. tt was really insensible of me last time.. I think i've really grown much sensible now.. Knowing What i want & what i want to fight for.. my dreams and aim etc.. I know it clearly now..

Loving a person is not by controlling over or having him..
loving a person is about giving and giving & never tot of having any returns.. Wu xian de ai.. This is call real love.. i began to understand this..

I just wish tt u r happy everyday & healthy too.. tt's all i ask for.. Go for your aims & i know u can do it..

Good nite & Jia you for tml Cutie..!

Hello Cutie.. how r u today??? hmm.. hope everything on your side is gd & fine..
My collegue lent me a Buddhist book today on "How to overcome your dificulties".... she got it from Guang Ming Shang... took afew books so just lent to some of us..

THe book wasn't tt detailed kind of book.. But anywae it knock me some enlightening phrase to me lo.. Quite nice to read this kind of books sometimes.. At least it helps me relieve my worries and fear for now... After reading i went to take out some Buddhist book from home.. cos ive kept some at home but din read it for years...(from mjr 1)...

Its time to read books to enlighten myself.. hehe.. hope i will become a better person.. ability to hand things & think properly... Pls enlighten me..

Good nite cutie.. sweet dreams & Jia you for tml studies and everything...!

Went to eat at Esteler (far east)... Ordered the same thing again.. Happy Soda & Chicken rice... Reminds me of u... You once told me tt "everytime i drink Happy Soda .. i feel so happy & even want to drink more"... keke... It was a place where we like & have memories there.... Maybe u already have forgotten..


Quite shock of a thing... cos actually is a suggest to go there eat for dinner.. Usually saman would say other places nicer to eat but i dunno y she follow my idea.. Tt's weird..


So hows your day today?? guess u might be sleeping till quite late.. yday must have been another long day for u... I think prob i pass your liquor during weekdays to ya mum... So u doesn't need to take time again to take from me.. cos if i see u i most prob want to talk to u and hug u de and takin up your time again...

Been wanting to see/meet u badly again.. but I know u doesn't have the urge to see me badly..

Let me have my Magical dreams... dreams where i dream of u only.. & can talk to u in there.. Gd nite my Cutie.. Hope u have your own magical dreams too...

A little a day.. creates memories of lifetime....

Cutie... how r u today?? Hmm.. hope u r workin hard for ya projects.. i believe u will.. Jia You oh!!....

Hmm.. i got a great day today... met up with my sisters... Chui, Ai & Ryan.. Has been a v long time since we last met... Chui told me tt she got this planning wit her bf tt they will get married after 6 yrs.. ok.. this is so sweet isn't it..? I really hope they do maintain it.. Bless them..

OK i know im imagining yet again.... I know u won't have this tot wit me cos i have alr destroyed everything... ok drop tis topic...

Wish u r happy & healthy everyday... Good nite cutie... JIA You for tml yea... =)

Cutie... im gg to China next Sunday.. Im telling u in advance cos i got the news just only today.. and the first thing i could think of is to tell u first over here as well as my current blog... My hp still got auto-roaming.. as usual i will still msg u one of the days...

Was thinking whether tt time u din pick up cos u dun wan to pick up my call ? or u were just sleeping? I didn't want to think of the negative one.. i will just treat it as u were slpin den.. I will still look over u when im there ok.. So i cant update my blog for tt 4 days alr... Will fill u up with the things over there when im back ok..

I think i will miss u alot really.. Dunno whether this time round i will still dream of u everyday.. i still want to dream of u .. cos in 'there' i can at least talk to u and able to see u too.. keke.. ok wat am i thinking man.. u might think its unrealistic.. but tt's my thinkin la ok? let me think tt way ok?..

SEe u in my dreams.. Cutie.. Good NIte & Jia You for tml !
I hope i can be with u forever...

I finally could tahan somebody's nagging without shooting her back.. she doesn't understand me at all.. She told me whenever she sees me she feels pain in her eyes.. Not cos she's crying or watever.. cos she hates me and disgust me.. the things i did she feels disgusted.. And she thinks im STUPID(ever since i was young).. and she thinks im useless and she would rather spend money on a DOG rather den a stupid useless ger.. (she makes sure i heard everything she said)...

I've already tried my best to get back late everyday...
Will u come & console me? I need a pair of listening ears & a shoulder to cry...

The Greatest Distance On
Earth is Not Between
Life & Death
But
IT is when I STand in Front of You
and Yet you Don't Know That
I LOVE U

Let me stay in the memory on 19062006

I cried after talkin to u on msn.. Maybe i shouldn't talk to u even online cos this will make me miss u even more.. and e urge to see u again..

I shouldn't be forgiven.. this shall be my punishment..

Good Nite Cutie.. JIa You for tml ... Sweet dreams..

Cutie.. hmm.. another day pass... So fast tt my birthday been over.. and yours coming soon.. have u got any idea where u want to celebrate at??& who u calling?? hopefully im also invited to your party too.. I know u didn't want to invite me or not say to celebrate with me alone like how i celebrated mine with u.. SAd :( ... I know u de.. U will rather celebrate with your frenz around.. Be it ya nafa frenz or sec sch frenz...

Maybe u will forget to invite me... cos u've forgotten abt my existence... Im prepared for tt excuse if u din invite me.. Tt day u've told me tt i do not need to give u any presents cos u dun wan me to waste my money and effort on it.. Come on.. Your frenz do give u presents rite.. I mean dun tell me im not even considered as one okay.. It hurts me u know.. like i really not either ya frenz or anybody.. Just another human to u unrelated and stuff.. Or maybe anything related to me u dun wanna have or accept? Is my present tt dirty or unfavourable to u?

Ok maybe im thinking too much.. U r not tt kind of person.. But im just sadz la... Maybe u will be much happier without my existence.. I dunno la.. seems like im not even ya frenz either..

I just hope i do have the chance to celebrate with u.. (be it in groups or individual).. But im not pinning high hopes on it.. cos i do know tt the percentage is really so little.. I just wish u r really v v happy on ya big day... So long as u r happy im happy too.. Its ya day so i respect ya decisions..

Will u accept my present on e day? i really hope u will.. Pls dun reject ok...

Good NIte & Sweet Dreams... JIA You for tml... GO! GO! GO!

Cutie ... sorry i din pass u the liquor in the afternoon.. I went to towner ya area there jus now.. cos went to my Gu gu hse after the buffet at my cousin's baby 1mth... Didn't know we gg there u see.. so sorry..

I guess u should be still slpin ba.. cos mayb yesterday u went out till quite late... jus guessing only.. Wanted to go visit u when i was at the area just now.. but i din .. not cos i din wan to see u .. i just scare u will say "dun wan la so bo liaoz.." .. and so another rejection again..

Putting u in my heart and knowing tt u are fine and well everyday.. im alr happy le.. I can still see our photos taken on my bday.. the kind of smiling expressions(its like smiling back at me) & u in the pics.. im alr happy le...

i still misses u loads.. good nite & sweet dreams cutie.. .....

received a booklet from parson sch of design...
everything abt the courses are all inside..
mayb god is hinting me to go oversea study instead?...

should i or should i not?
i have u here.. i have family here.. i have career here.. and frenz here...
a scholarship maybe will help me to be more decisive... i cant afford.. and i can't afford to leave u too.. (although i dun get to see u often but least i can feel tt u r still near me.. stepping on the same land)

went for this MSW event at Novetel hotel.. and there's this section where they wore evening gowns out.. at tt moment i tot of my "imaginery wedding day"... me & u together walking hand in hand.. everybody witnessing this very special day... & my gowns and ya tuxedos are designed by me.. i will be so gorgeous and u be so handsome.. everybody wishing us eternity(bai tou xie lao)...
I think i will be very very happy on tt very day.. (can this imagination be true?i hope it does...mayb u dun dreamt of tt..)

Wondering what u will be doing now.. im quite tired today.. so wont be updating alot.. ok anywae u also doesn't know this blog exist..

im just wondering when will we able to meet up?(to pass u the liquor).. sometimes i hope its sooner.. but sometimes i do not wan it to be too soon cos this is the chance to b able to see u(to pass u the liquor).. after tt don't know when will be seeing u(cos do not have another excuse to meet u up alr)..

Can i hug u again? I really miss u lots..

(thinking of my future.. mayb i shld go for overseas study?and hopefully i can get a job there too.. and staying there for gd.. you've given up on me alr.. my things seems not much interest to u too.. but somehow sth is stopping me.. which is u.. i do not want to leave u..)