Its been so many weeks of nt updating my own blog alr.. I dunno .. juS dun have the mood to blog anything ever since i heard some comments from my dad.. Tt has got me so sian..
After some clarifications from him yesterday... i was happy though (for the ans).. but at e same having another mixed feeling (im suppose to be happy rite?).. e feeling u know when u miss someone but he's nt there (u need so much of his hugs esp.. with kisses too)... e feeling just suxs when u cant even get close to him let alone abt the ones mentioned above... i dun think he ever feels wat i feeling right now (i think).. do u?
Ive been doing some mad stuff recently so not to have so much free time to think of him... Working maddnessly late, watching goong dvd madnessly, listen to 933 every day, etc etc .. i dun even know wat im doing.. PRob tt's the result of being madnessly missing someone..
Y do i have to tell him how i really feel yesterday.. So baka of me..! I think he would just ignore it.... SO baka!
i just know now tt i miss him lots lots.. ( can stop my mind anot )...
After some clarifications from him yesterday... i was happy though (for the ans).. but at e same having another mixed feeling (im suppose to be happy rite?).. e feeling u know when u miss someone but he's nt there (u need so much of his hugs esp.. with kisses too)... e feeling just suxs when u cant even get close to him let alone abt the ones mentioned above... i dun think he ever feels wat i feeling right now (i think).. do u?
Ive been doing some mad stuff recently so not to have so much free time to think of him... Working maddnessly late, watching goong dvd madnessly, listen to 933 every day, etc etc .. i dun even know wat im doing.. PRob tt's the result of being madnessly missing someone..
Y do i have to tell him how i really feel yesterday.. So baka of me..! I think he would just ignore it.... SO baka!
i just know now tt i miss him lots lots.. ( can stop my mind anot )...
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
Hi how r u already? Must be gd ... Starting of your next sem... Yr 3 alr rite i think... Rem the day i saw u at the arcade? I was real shocked... Din expect to see you there... Before the day i dreamt of u.. & the next day i saw u there... Still my heart pounding so fast whenever u r around... You seems to enjoy & abit fatter now le... Well its gd & im happy fer ya...
That day Saman birthday, MIch & I talked alot.. She was talking about you... She was asking alot of stuff... & everything i answered was negative... I don't know but i felt this way... I wasn't convinced by myself tt one day u would come back to me.. I did bad thing to u.. to think back i was foolish to do that.. Its obviously that i love u alot but yet im doing things that hurted you.... I was greedy & somehow physchoed at tt pt of time... All i tot was of u even when i was wit him... He knew tt deep in my heart i still have you... TT's y i got all the shit from him becos he knew u cant be replaced in my heart.. ok yea i know watever i said now its useless already.. so i will just keep inside my heart...
Her questionings just made me so sad & think alot of stuff ... I dunno la... I just worked my days off so i wont have so much free time to think of it... Pack myself with lots of stuff so i can lessen e no. of times thinking of u ....
That day Saman birthday, MIch & I talked alot.. She was talking about you... She was asking alot of stuff... & everything i answered was negative... I don't know but i felt this way... I wasn't convinced by myself tt one day u would come back to me.. I did bad thing to u.. to think back i was foolish to do that.. Its obviously that i love u alot but yet im doing things that hurted you.... I was greedy & somehow physchoed at tt pt of time... All i tot was of u even when i was wit him... He knew tt deep in my heart i still have you... TT's y i got all the shit from him becos he knew u cant be replaced in my heart.. ok yea i know watever i said now its useless already.. so i will just keep inside my heart...
Her questionings just made me so sad & think alot of stuff ... I dunno la... I just worked my days off so i wont have so much free time to think of it... Pack myself with lots of stuff so i can lessen e no. of times thinking of u ....
I will get very emo... Its nt abt myself but abt you.... Stoppin here...
